I'm just going to leave this untitled.

Something small I wrote last year. I thought I could add onto it, but I like it the way it is:

Untitled

I still continue to miss you.
I continue to envision you in my future.
But I know that it means nothing
because you've already drifted
so far away from me.
I stood along the shore
calling out to you,
but you had become a speck
in the distant sun
as you floated over
the ocean of my dreams.
I'm left there struggling
with my heart
because there is a part of me that loves you to no end
and there is a part of me that wants to let go.
I tried to jump into the water after you,
but it was useless
as I nearly drowned myself
in our memories and
the thoughts of what we had wanted to be.
I somehow floated back to land.
I washed up, gasping for air,
and drenched in all the broken promises.
After laying on the sand for a while,
I sat up and stared out
at the setting sun,
the direction you were heading.
Yet as I felt the water gently wash up against me,
I breathed in hope
that one day the winds
will re-direct your route
and return you to me...

xLe's hand

haha...ok xLe i'm gonna test this picture thing.

this is xLe's hand. i scribbled on it while we were waiting to get seated at denny's after the "spoken word is dead" iLL-lit show. =P

These Days

Another song I wrote a while back and haven't shared publicly. Written in memory of Kuya BJ and others who have passed on into paradise.

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As these days pass me by
So grows the pain
While watching videos of you I cry
Or when I hear your name
Oh I can hardly sleep
Just can’t find my way
My body’s feeling weak
And life ain’t the same
Without you

Tell me why’d you have to go?

‘Cause I’m sittin’ here wondering
When are you coming back to me
I feel a part of me dying
And I just don’t want things to be
It’s not supposed to be this way
You should’ve been alive and happy
Still feel your presence and your energy
But fate wanted you at peace these days

Been living so many memories
Sometimes laughing, sometimes hurting me
Endless crying, screaming out why
Why God chose to take away your life
Oh I can’t see the reason
There’s no sense at all
A lost faith in this confusion
In a state of no control
I miss you

Tell me why’d you have to go?

‘Cause I’m sittin’ here wondering
When are you coming back to me
I feel a part of me dying
And I just don’t want things to be
It’s not supposed to be this way
You should’ve been alive and happy
Still feel your presence and your energy
But fate wanted you at peace these days

Still in shock losing you so soon
There’s a harmony missing in this tune
The heavens had called your phone
Couldn’t you leave the ringing alone
Let the voicemail answer cuz it wasn’t time
Can’t you see that these days don’t shine
Why can’t I just see you now
Just want to see you smile again somehow
Too impatient to wait for heaven’s gate
Please tell me this is all a mistake

‘Cause I’m sittin’ here wondering
When are you coming back to me
I feel a part of me dying
And I just don’t want things to be
It’s not supposed to be this way
You should’ve been alive and happy
Still feel your presence and your energy
But fate wanted you at peace these days

©xLe

Just Speak...xLe's 1st post!

My first post! Yay. =). This is a song I finally completed last year after having it sit in my notebook for nearly a year. LoL. No one else has read it, so here's it premiere. Weeeeeeeeee!

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Just Speak

Your hurt washes in like a low tide
Subtle pain that’s too hard to hide
I feel your emotions clashing inside
Problems too deep to try and subside
Holding your voice back is unbearable
You feel like you’ve lost your freedom
You think you’ve got no say at all
That you’re just political entertainment
I’m here to say that you’re wrong
Your words will live even when you’re gone
You need to go on and inspire
Be the spark that ignites the fire

Chorus
Just speak
Let the words flow out naturally
Don’t hold back
Put your mind at ease
Just speak
You will be heard, someone’s listening
Don’t be afraid
Keep your soul rising
Just speak, oh, just speak

Spoken Word
Speak, child. Don’t hold back,
Like a cataclysmic boom,
Let the world make room for your opinion.
Who are they to tell you what you can envision?
Let your words flow with the grace of
a ballerina dancing on her tiptoes,
but voice out with the force of an animal stampede
heeding into the known.
Soar to the sky like a butterfly,
release all the tension you’ve been keeping inside.
You can’t be told who to be,
can’t be told what to dream.
Let go and be free.
Open your eyes to the light
and you will see.
Open your mind
and make decisions wisely.
Open your heart
and fill the void with an inner peace.
If you don’t say it,
no one will know about it.
So speak, release, speak.
So speak, release, speak.
Just speak.

CHORUS

The smallest change can make a difference
Tell me what have you to lose
If you need a little assistance
Just listen to that voice inside of you
You’re put on this earth for a purpose
Don’t you dare think you’re insignificant
You need to find your reason
Have faith, your voice will have justice

CHORUS

© xLe