eromynawonktnodi

fresh feelings
of fiending to find flavors to define future self
race through the mind like hearts do
just as they slowly creep to beatbox of
another
noticing my development seems
arrested i feel
a change is
long overdue
each breath spells out a self
tradition laced in contradiction
hoping i can maintain some sense of balance to
experience the true nature of growth, but
i don't know which direction will
allow
me to find pieces of peace because so
often i'm
so confused with the pieces of me, on
quest to become more intelligent, i'm hella quick to go dumb
unique in my speech, but similar in my actions
earthbound being just wanting to get high
do i really just want to say fuck it
and allow nature to take its course or does
time
escalate too quickly for
me to not maintain some sense of control?
pressured by monotomy, my dichotomy
leaves me feeling
a little empty like nothing
nada
zilch
and quite frankly that unsettles me
,
as the lungs rise like the sun to
breathe in
respiration allows me to see how much i'm inspired by
existence
appreciation of god's design uplifts my arms
to the sky where dreams
hover just in within reach to teach
one about self
fresh feelings of
fiending to find flavors to define future self
relinquish control of my being
each time i breathe in
so i stop, pause, focus
halfway between earth
and the heavens
inhale to exhale
respire to inspire infinite growth