i've never been.

no metaphors. no similes. no comparisons. just truth. it feels nice to not lace this with my usual neurotic over-analysis and obsessive exaggeration. for once, i think i can just take this as it is. there's no competition or reason to prove myself to anyone this time. it's just us. there's no stress or pressures that are too much to bear as there have been with others. there is nothing to do but be me this time. for once. just this once. it's nice to just sit and talk or kiss or feel or live or laugh or chill or party or drink or drive or wander or second-hand smoke or smile. just love. it's simple. there's nothing to it. i appreciate it. simplicity and reality. i catch myself wondering...wandering. but i catch it and just feel like, fuck it! you know. acceptance. just acceptance of love and the love of acceptance. i can feel. i can see. i can be. me. just me. i've never been. just me...