Life is ticking

Tick tock, the clock keeps ticking
so you better get on your feet and start kicking
before you lose everything and start trippin
You've been trying to find someone special in your life
someone that's perfectly unperfect, like a potential wife
You try to find this this called happiness in this cruel universe
but you never find it..... it's like you got a curse
Growing up you've thought happiness was this thing called love
Little did you know that happiness was more than just love
All your life you've just been trying to find something that's fiction
In the end, you're left alone eating a hot pocket in the kitchen

You look at life and think about how much maturity grew in you
yea....you've step up a little bit in your game
but reality you're still the same
You think about what you've done wrong
Maybe it's all the shit you've smoked out of that bong......nah that aint it
Maybe you're not good enough to be with that special someone.....nah
Maybe you're just not ready because you havn't grown up yet.........maybe

As you live your 22 years of life
you've been telling yourself "I should've done this! I should've done that!"
you've been asking yourself " what if i have done this? what if i have done that?"
but it's too late to take it all back
you ask questions like:
why did she break my heart? why am i all alone?
why havn't i live the life that i wanted?
why do we have to deal with tribulations and trials in life?
why do we have to experience pain and sorrows in life?
why is she so pretty from head to toe?
but why do we have to superman that hoe?
WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?
SHIT!!! why does the seasons of friends have to be over
DAMN....... why do you always ask so many questions?

Couple of years ago you were just having fun
chilling and smoking out with your boys
having a blast and watching episodes of friends
The whole 10 seasons of friends have gone by
Then you buy the dvd and watch the whole 10 seasons again
but nothing have changed since then
You've watched the whole 10 seasons, watching ross and rachel being together
then break up, then get back together and went on a break, got a baby and you know the rest
The point is that you've watch these characters change and grow up
but you're still the same and nothings changed

Now you got to face reality
and you got to have that "I'm going to make it to the top" mentality
Cuz one day you'll be worth a million
All your life you've been trying to find something that you don't need
What you really need to be looking for is yourself.....happiness in yourself
you need to find your life.....
You've been wasting half of your life searching for something you're not going to have until you find your true self
You aint getting any younger
but you're not getting older.....
you're just getting better
You think it's too late for all that? you think it's too late to change your life?
.............look at the clock
Tick tock......the clock keeps ticking
You have plenty of time

she's worth the trouble

Thank you for everything you’ve done for me
thanks to u, now I have strength to move on
move on to a better life
I will never forget you my first true love

You came to my world and prove to me that love existed
when I didn’t have hope, you came and brought joy in my life
swear you could’ve been my perfect wife
but perfection you were not
You were real, devoted, sweet, true, passionate to me
but in the end you left me
but I never thought that I could be
the one u called “beautiful”
never thought that I could be someone’s prince Aladdin
knowing that all my life I’ve been searching for my princess Jasmine

No one really gave me a chance but you
so this love thing, I didn’t have any clue
nobody took the time to teach me what love was but you
so I thank you,

Thank you for the moments we had
whether it was good or bad
at the end of the night we had each other smiling
holding each other until the morning come
I remember that day I gave you my heart
we cried 2gether looking at each other eyes
knowing that nothing could tear us apart
but it did…..

I don’t know maybe I wasn’t good enough
cuz our relationship was kinda rough
but you were always so tough
when everyone told you to leave me for them
cuz I was so shorter than all of them
but you said “he mite be short but he got the biggest heart”

We’ve grown on each other as the days went by
when I was with you, my face, I would never sigh
finally!!!!! someone got a smile out of me
the feeling I had inside me was so amazingly, truly lovely

Now it’s over……
you’re gone and I’m left here without my heart
you are my heart and you have my heart and I cant live without my heart
but I have to….

So I stand here today listening to our song by j. valentine
wondering was she really worth the trouble???
my answer is yes she was
every single day of every single month, she was worth it
thank you for loving me and everything you’ve given me
now I’m setting you free….
setting myself free…
Goodbye my love
never forget everything we shared

I love you…….my princess jasmine

The door

I don’t get why your gone
I don’t get why our relationship is over and done
I don’t get why your not here by my side
I don’t get why you lied
thinking to myself did our relationship just died?

I sit here alone thinking if I should pretend 2 be happy or should I just cry
I sit here thinking to myself why am I asking questions starting with why
why did she, why does she, why is she like this and that
but think about it……..do you really want her back?

maybe its your time to live your life
maybe its your time to grow up
maybe all this kiddy stuff…........u juss had enuff
maybe you need to let her go
in order to enter that door

The door that will lead you to the light
a path that wont let you be alone at night
a path that will lead you to your salvation
all you have to do is pray and have faith
and den you’ll be granted with a great vacation

This is what you deserve
not the life of sadness and depression
yea maybe she’s an obsession
but never loose your concentration
let her go and get back on track in order to receive your salvation

its your turn to be rewarded with happiness
in the past I’ve done bad…..
Yes, I confess
but its never too late to get back up and walk….
Walk towards that door
that door where you will find your true happiness