anchored

anchored

in between tequila shots and your

stank breath

around cigarettes and traces of

old piss

in front of whispered secrets

gasped in

deep breath

i hold it all in

because i am two sizes skinnier when i do

if i hold it all in

because my body needs this more than bathroom tiles

if i hold it all in

my throat begins to feel heavy

and my lungs are anchored ready to collapse

if i hold it all in

i just may fall

hold my breath in tunnels

with thumbs on car ceilings

make wishes

that recoil down my throat

while holding it all in