[freewrite piece]

Real talk.
I think that life throws you obstacles that you need to get through
And it’s up to you to get through the right way or slip by the wrong way
And everything that happens has a cause and effect.
Like an effect that's direct. Or even indirect.
Every influence that passes by. Changes us.
Whether it pushes us to that influence.
Or against it.
It’s a rather philosophical outlook on life
Which requires time and understanding.
Which requires? An open mind... So we can all understand where were

Some people change. Others don't.
Well actually I take that back cause.
Everyone changes in one way or another.
You just may not realize it.
Till it’s too late?
Or no. Maybe you realize it and you want to change
A change for the better.
A change for the worse
Confronted with so many choices were lost in a revolving curse
One that appears and disappears over and over again
With problems that occur and reoccur and reoccur once again.

Some people don't realize it. Cause they may be shadowed.
Shit I was shadowed too. Till someone shined the light in my eyes.
I was just a shadow following others. Who followed others.
Who was probably following another
Thus following a chain of others that ended up being a chain where we
follow the wrong one.
But what dictates the wrong chain from the right chain.
Cause there's those with the positive effect on people
And those with a negative effect.
And how do we know which were in and in time redirect and go the
Different effect.
The one were meant to go to.
The positive and negative blend together like a battery.
Both feeding of each others charge.
Taking or giving. Or just passing through.
There's a change that takes place.
And it makes us wonder whose place to take
And how it makes us what we are
There's usually that one person that affects us and make a change for
The better.
Or maybe two. Three people. A community of neighbor’s friends. Family.
A support group of people that's always there to positively charge us
When were down
And to make sure negativity stays away.

But back to the changes.
The changes we make to ourselves and the way we carry and make
Ourselves flow affects others.
Though you may not realize
Under those childly faces
Teenage acting and criticizing disguises.
A positive attitude affects the whole community.
And I don't only mean a community.
As in your area or your hood
I mean the community of people around you whether they support or
Neglect.
There's that effect.

Each person you come in contact with shapes who you are
They can leave you happy or can leave you with a scar.
But that still has an effect.
And it’s all in your head how you want to perceive that effect.
Whether you wanna go their way. Or your way.
Its all choices that you've got to make.
Whether you want to be that positive or negative effect on yourself
Or others.
We gotta realize who we are ourselves
And look in the inner workings of our own...inner subconscious
Cause under that front. That fakes.
That wanna be person you have when you’re out on a date.
Or that wanna be person you just gotta take...everywhere you go
With that kinda life. Where do you find time for yourself?
Slowly and slowly you have a split personality. A front.
Till the end your stick with anew persona.
Losing the good in your true self
The one you were born with.
Remember as a kid. An innocent child.
The unchanged personality. Where the most change in persona you had was
What your favorite cartoon character was.
But it’s all changed. Cause of cause and effect
Everything’s a cause and our society is the effect.

Look in the mirror and tell me deep down if you like what you see
Cause to be real. I don't approve of what i see
It seems we all put up a front or try to compensate for things that
Don’t really matter.
And it’s not bad to compensate. But when compensation gets to that
Level of determination
And it becomes competition to be the best
To impress yourselves and others by all means necessary
To make something of yourselves and show them you’re something with worth
That you worn born with a greater purpose. And not just an accident
That
Happen to get birthed.
Nature vs. nurture. The all time debate.
Are we born this way or does the society and those around us affect us.

It’s a mixture of both. But mostly nurture.
Cause of once again it’s the effect of others on us.
And we gotta learn to trust.
Cause what's a society and relationship without trust.
More like disgust. But this is the sad strange reality most have come
To
Be
Looking out for number 1
Ourselves. When we should put ourselves last and put others in front
But I guess that's the way the plus and negative charge works...a
Continuous revolving circle.
And it all depends what you make yourself become
Free or chained in that revolving circle we’ve come to call home.