of course...

i found you
in the middle of an escapade
in the middle of a journey
on a one way track
to where i thought i wanted to be

thanks a whole lot for throwing me off course
of course...

because you pushed me back
to where i made mistakes
and made me relearn it all the right way
of course...of course

i'll never forget that smile
that made me addicted to your essence
your presence sucked me in and held me close
you exhaled me slowly
and left me stranded in the midst of my addiction
still waiting with open arms waiting for my next dose

but you were nowhere to be found
you were all around
you were unfocused
i couldn't blink past the tears
to find you clouding my visual
my scene was raining of you
and i couldn't get anything to contain you

i cried longer and i missed you more
i can't imagine what it would be like if i ever saw you again
maybe this is what's best for me
to be lost in missing you
to be lost in memories of kissing you
because any reality close to anything more of you
would only cause me more insanity

i have realized the powerless words that fall from my lips
they used to be so strong so confident in speech
and now you twisted me and i can't breathe
i miss the words that used to make sense
make me hold your hand
they used to make reason
make me feel you

and i'm all out of reason
i have no sense
memories of days passing through me
i can't see the light of tomorrow
if you're my sun that doesn't shine
i miss you

so with only nonsense in my pocket
and less reasoning holding my stitches in place
i walk forward knowing you won't be next to me
for every new tomorrow
i hold my own hands to keep them warm
and i feel hardly touched at all

now that heaven took you away
i feel the coldest breezes of your presence
as the warmest memories of you flood my nostalgia
because every time my reality regains its peace
i am thrown off course by this agonizing pain
caused by the missing pieces of my heart you stole
but it is the only way missing you fits
of course...